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I quit FGO.

I should have done this years ago, and in a way its pathetic it took me wasting my money on things that were supposed to be less of a gamble for me to realise it.

Did the paid summon thing where you can guarentee one out of however many Servants. I didn't care for any of the Archers available but had to choose one out of obligation.

I got Moriarty.

Did the guarenteed 1 servant of a certain gender between whatever year and whatever to try and get Arcueid. Got Lady Avalon instead.

Realised I've been a fucking idiot for spending money on this shit and deleted the app.

I spent £40 for absolutely nothing other than some Servants I didn't even want.

I'm never going to get that money (or my account either) back but at least it taught me a valuable lesson on why I shouldn't gamble (I'm suprised hitting pity on Oberon didn't tell me that already).

I didn't even enjoy playing FGO either, the gameplay was boring as hell and I didn't give a shit for the story. I was really only there because to gamble.

Don't play gacha games.

I've mad such an ass of myself with that game that it kind of makes me reconsider if I should even be a Type-Moon fan when they've given me a gambling addiction.

When I realise Fate/Stay Night and Tsukihime (as good as they are) filtered me towards gambling it kind of makes them feel less special and less "honest". Maybe I'm still salty about not getting any of the Servants I wanted, but I've felt this way before - just not as strongly.

I love these games but certainly they've indirectly had a negative impact on me, even if it was my own fault for gambling at all.

I've dedicated an entire website to a company that's kind of shitty, and I wonder that if I ever get big enough and actually get somewhat popular on here if I'll encourage someone to play FGO and develop a gambling addiciton on it.

I kind of wonder if I should keep this site up when it is basically advertising for a company that's kind of scummy.

Again, I might just be crashing out here over my lack of impulse control, but I'm kind of tempted to delete the site.

IDK

If you're follwing me and I suddenly disappear from your follows, you know why.

War betwewn India and Pakistan - even if as far as I'm aware neither has officially declared it.

Pretty scary on a global scale as they are both nucelear powers, I can only hope they de-escalate but I severly doubt that either will for a while - they both seem far too stubborn and full of hate for the opposite side to do anything that's percieved as letting the other off.

I hope I'm wrong of course.

If not, just another mess we made back in the process of decolonisation coming back with deadly consqeunces.

Not much I can do, so I hope the above statement doesn't come across as callous and dismissive of the conflict. I hope Pakistan just gives India the alleged terrorists because there is no way Modi will back down - being harsh on Muslim extremism is one of (as far as I have seen) one of the key aspects of his appeal - without getting a "win". Again, I hope I'm wrong the "targeted action" will be enough - I guess that partially depends on whether or not Pakistan responds.

I also hope that China or us don't get dragged in (China because of their support for Pakistan and border dispute with India and us because of one nation trying to make us take responsibility for the problems we caused) and raise the damage causedd by potential nucelear war even wider.

Us getting involved is probably just me always thinking of the worst possible outcome, as if I were Indian or Pakistani I'd want the British government as far away from us as possible. But I can honestly see China getting dragged in if India accuses them of also harbouring terrorists as part of support for Pakistan.

It's also a little disturbing to see how nationalistic the general populace of both sides seem to be - and how secure the Indians particular seem to be in the idea that they are invincible and that the international community hates Pakistan as much as them and thinks India can do no wrong. There's clearly some popular support for extrme action.

I hope that's the craziest voices just being the loudest.